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I've started and stopped writing this post over three times because each time I get to typing I'm at loss for words. I know what I want to say but everything becomes jumbled. Today in class I had the opportunity to talk it out with some friends and I finally said it in the way that makes sense (I think).

So enjoy me rambling about how I need to suck it up and deal with the present.

In high school I was obsessed with going to college, I so badly wanted that getaway and fresh start. Coming into college it was exactly what I needed.  I got connected, I found friends and I have continued to grow so much.

Junior year is tough because a lot of "my people" have graduated. I still have friends and social events to attend but it's extremely different from my past two years in school. It's week 3 of school and I feel like I should've adjusted to that change by now. What I found when I was talking this out with my friends is that I've always been so focused on the future. I'm so excited to graduate which is exactly how I was in high school. Once a major happens I get comfortable but then quickly move on to the next thing.

So this is my Bitmoji and honestly it's a real mood

My feeling that I haven't adjusted comes from the fact that I'm always so futuristic but recently I've had a mix of living in the past and the future. I've been reminiscing on how great my semester was last year socially but longing for the future where I can settle down.

All in all, life is weird. I love Drury, I love the program I'm in, I love KD. I'm just learning to embrace each day and make the best of it.
I guess I wrote this blog post to share that it's okay to be in the in-between stages of life-- life isn't always going to be incredible or the worst. This blog post is also a place to remind myself to suck it up and enjoy the present. No good occurs from trying to live in the past or fixating on the future.

As I go forward into the remainder of this semester I'm going to remind myself to be present in the moment and make the most of it.

Until next time,
Taylor xx