Believe in Your Body

My good friend Madison Hadler’s latest podcast episode was all about body image, self-confidence and self-love. More times than I'd like to admit, it's easy to slip into a negative mindset about myself and my body. When I started working out around two years ago I did it for both mental and physical reasons. After quitting swim team, I had spent my senior year of high school doing some triathlon training but not a whole lot, and I didn’t go to the gym my first semester of freshman year at all. “Getting more toned” was always the goal (ps getting toned isn’t a real thing, it’s just fat loss and muscle gain). I also loved the mental benefits. For a half hour to an hour every day I got to do something solely for me, listening to music I loved, and overall just feeling better.


Of course, it is not all positives. There were times where I was bored or where I felt like I had to force myself to go. I have tried to track my macros and count calories but it never really worked for me because I’d either under-represent the serving size or I’d stop using it because I’d be afraid of going over the calorie point. I stopped when I realized this was an unhealthy way to view food.

Something I struggled with more recently, though, is the idea that if I miss more than the scheduled rest days I planned for that I will lose all of my progress. I have worked so hard in the gym and running and I have made progress. I went from thinking the only muscle groups you could train were arms and legs, to adding in back, shoulders, chest and abs. I think there is this misconception that once you start working out you will get the body you've always dreamed of, but in reality it's a lot of work, it's a lot of slow changes, and you may not always get abs (most of the time you won't).

Okay, Taylor, you’ve talked about your gym successes and struggles, but how does this relate to Madison Hadler’s podcast? Well, kind reader, this is how.

No one wakes up every morning thinking “I hope I look really terrible in the clothes I wear today.” I’d be lying to you if I said I never thought about being skinnier, had abs, or didn’t have wide hips. Yesterday as I was getting ready for work I was excited to put on some of my loose, elastic business pants because there wouldn't be a button or zipper digging into my belly button at my desk all day. As I put on the pants they weren’t as loose as I expected, in fact they fit my body like a glove unlike last year. The first thing I thought was about how I needed to lose weight and prepare for my family vacation, a float trip I’m going on with my friends, and my birthday weekend. I stopped myself, though, and for the first time in a long time I recognized that gaining a little bit of weight (and probably some muscle) is okay. Listening to Madison's podcast helped reinforce that our bodies are not meant to stay the same. We will grow and change, and that. is. okay.

I can work out in order to make that physical progress that I hope for but life is too short to beat yourself up because your stomach isn't flat and sculpted. Love yourself & just wear the swim suit. 

As I go into all of these events later in July, I may not have the perfect body that I've dream of, but I am me and I am enough. That being said, don’t be afraid to push yourself to make healthy changes, but also love yourself where you’re at. 

Until next time,
Taylor xx