As I reflect on the past two years there are a few specific moments I want to point out.
My first video ever was entitled "Christmas List-First Video", original I know. I sat in front of my desk with the iPad mini I had won at youth group propped up against the wall. I filmed my video on there, downloaded iMovie for free, taught myself the basics and uploaded it all right then and there.
Christmas List- First Video |
I've told my "YouTube Story" many times. I always thought that my anxiety began sophomore year, but looking back I realize it's always been there I just picked a pinnacle point. Although most of my videos are upbeat and happy, I think a lot of my video-making was just allowing myself to talk freely.
Throughout my childhood I was super quiet, at least I think so. I honestly don't remember talking in 6th and 7th grade besides on the bus occasionally. In general, I remember very little of middle school (6th-8th grade) and maybe that's my brain blocking out everything, nonetheless it's a very vacant time in my life.
Going into freshman year, I always say that it was a dark time, specifically because I didn't handle the change well. YouTube became my outlet during my sophomore year to just talk and say what I'm feeling. I'm very sarcastic and I feel like that can be misunderstood. In my videos my sarcasm was obvious and understood by my audience.
Through my junior and senior years my channel has grown more than I ever thought it would. I currently have 204 videos up, 88 subscribers and 5,923 total views.
2015 has been a monumental year for me. My family and I did a lot of amazing things, but I also can point out a lot of rough patches, too. November and December have easily been some of the best months of my life because for the first time I'm genuinely 100% happy.
YouTube is important because I was able to document both the good and bad moments throughout the years. As much as I make videos for others to enjoy, it's also therapy for me to get things off my chest, talk about social/life events, and document my memories.
Thank you all for supporting me both my blog platform and my YouTube platform. I would be no where without you. I'm so excited for 2016 and although a lot of changes are coming up, I think I'm finally ready for them.
Until next time,
Taylor xx