So if I'm being honest, when I released my "Stop Feeling Guilty" post I had the titles for my two follow up blog posts (this one and "Being Remembered"). I was having a really good writing day when I wrote "Stop Feeling Guilty" but when I tried to write "Being Remembered" a few days later I was stumped. My ideas were cluttered, I knew what I wanted to say but not how I wanted to write it (which is pretty rare for me).
I talked through my "Being Remembered" and "Stop Feeling Guilty" ideas with a friend. He gave me some really good insight and helped me streamline my thoughts. We talked about the idea of being remembered first and then how playing it safe prevents you from being remembered.
I have always had an idea of what I want to do. In 8th grade I had picked out the university I wanted to study at and the major I wanted to pursue... well that was until I visited Drury in the spring semester of my junior year. The news of me wanting to go to Drury instead of Truman shocked a lot of my friends and family because I had been set on it for so long. I guess you could say one of my biggest moments of not playing it safe was choosing Drury when I had already set my mind on Truman.
Going into college everything is a new opportunity, everything is a risk. My freshman year I adapted to the college setting a lot more than I anticipated. Part of that was pushing myself to not play it safe. I would constantly tell myself that I wasn't paying all of this money to sit in my room and stare at the wall, I could do that at home for free.
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I had to (and still do) actively work to not play it safe. I went through sorority recruitment, I took smaller leadership roles in my chapter, I am managing editor of the newspaper. I would not have accomplished these things if I chose to step back and let others do what I thought I could do.
I definitely have my friends to thank for pushing me to believe in myself even when I doubt my capabilities. Because of them I truly believe I am a better person than I was a year ago.
Lambda Chi Alpha's Watermelon Fest
This summer I spent a lot of time doing nothing and it was great for a while but I can only do nothing for so long before I go stir crazy. I missed my friends from school so much and all I wanted to do was spend time with them. Like I mentioned above, they motivate me to strive for more and I missed that so much this summer.
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| My little, Noelle, and I on Bid Day (obviously before we knew we'd be big/little) |
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| Rachel and I after she ran home for the 2nd time. She was Panhellenic's VP-Recruitment and was disaffiliated for the recruitment process. |
It's crazy to me because my best friends now are people I barely knew at this point last year and they are some of the most important people in my life. I want my sophomore year to be filled with as many memories and experiences as possible and I know that with them I can make that a possibility.
Until next time,
Taylor xx
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