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The past few days of last week were dedicated to brainstorming for our next issue of the newspaper. My lovely friend Maddie pitched the idea of "starting over", which got me thinking.

Whenever someone asks the questions, "if you can change anything in your life what would you change?" or "if you had to start over, would you?" The immediate, stereotypical response, is no because that means you wouldn't be where you are today. We believe in the butterfly effect so essentially we don't want to mess with the past because of how it may effect us in the moment today.

Let's ignore all of that. I'm sure there are things we'd all love to change if we had the ability to. So I am just going to forget about the big picture for a moment (which is hard for me because I always look at the big picture). Here are a few things I would change.

1. Stop Holding Grudges: There are events in my life that I know the general premise for why I'm mad but forget the finer details. I need to let things go and move on with life. Most situations aren't worth getting repeatedly upset over.

2. Keep in Contact With People: I admit, I suck at keeping in contact with people. I think this is partially why my friend group has changed every year in high school. I don't mean to do this, I just don't think about it until it seems too late to me. At the same time, though, the past two years my friend group has been comprised of seniors, so I've had to make new school friends because they go off to college. Anyway... I want to keep in touch with my friends more because whenever we do catch up, it is like we never left. Some of my closest friends this year are people I knew from elementary school. For example, one of my best friends, Imani, lives down the street from me. We were really good friends in middle school but lost contact freshman year. It's funny because she admits that she's bad at keeping in contact with people, too. If we would've kept in touch, I would've also known one of my other best friends, Natira, longer.

These Polaroids are on the last day of first semester before Natira moved.

Ignore my finger covering the photo. I don't even know how that happened

This photo was taken after Natira moved and we tried to cheer her up with this glorious selfie. Also, I'm really proud because Natira, Imani, and I text everyday so I'm improving.
3. My Over-apologizing: As you may know, I over-apologize for just about everything. Over the past four years, I've definitely improved but I still catch myself doing it unintentionally. My friends call me out when I do over-apologize which has led me to stay accountable. My friend Anya was telling me that at one point during freshman year I would apologize so much that people would start just putting the blame on me for things I didn't even do because they knew I would say sorry. I can proudly say I've improved, but I wish I wouldn't have let it happen to begin with.

Okay so those are some things I would like to change/start over if I could. Hopefully you all enjoyed this post and I'll see you all soon.

Until next time,
Taylor xx