#IAmFeeling

Sophomore political science and Spanish student, Caleb Conaway, shares how he learned to embrace his emotions. Read his #IAmFeeling story below.

Why did you pick that word?
Feeling encompasses both the range of my emotions and the scope of things to which they apply. I feel like it is a big part of my identity to feel a broad range of emotions and feel them very deeply. 

Do you have a story from when you recognized that you identified with the word you picked?
Growing up I was extremely expressive, very rambunctious, loud and sensitive. It was sensitivity that as I grew older sort of felt like it was incorrect or wrong in a way.

Societal standards dictate that men are supposed to be strong, confident, unfeeling and in a lot of ways apathetic. That’s not how I was raised, but all my friends in elementary school, middle school, high school, and a lot of my role models on TV, in movies and books, were very anti-sensitivity, anti-showing emotions. For a long time I repressed my empathetic and sensitive tendencies.

It wasn’t until college where I met two of my best friends in the world and went through something pretty difficult in my first year, that I broke down and cried in front of them. This was something I had never really done before with anybody. They felt comfortable enough to share their stories with me and we sort of had an empathetic, sensitive community growing which made me feel so much more at home with myself and at Drury.

What would you tell others who struggle with recognizing their worth?
Don’t let other people dictate how you express yourself.

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