I have a journal where I write down quotes and random thought provoking ideas. This week is my first "layout" week, where the newspaper staff stays after school progressively longer until the newspaper is finished being put together Thursday night. Today we stayed after until 5:30. I should probably be doing some extra studying right now but I got what I had to accomplish done and I'm worn out.
My stress about school is what lead me to my post today. This is what I journaled about yesterday.
The thing that stresses me out the most is the future. Every little thing I do at 16 is going to affect me when I'm 25. Yes, one bad assignment might not ruin me, but an accumulation of disappointing assignments will. AP English is known for its difficulty but I try so hard in it. The decision lies in whether to push myself in the hard class or pass with flying colors in the easy class. The amount of pressure my grades put on me are outrageous. My parents aren't even the ones who put the pressure on me, I alone put enough pressure on myself. I took difficult classes because they interest me (intro to marketing, AP English). Do colleges actually look at my transcript or the GPA besides it. Do honors organizations care about the type of classes I'm taking or the numbers and decimals beside them. In a world full of "new" thinking, it seems we're consumed in image rather than quality. I'll go to bed with my grades scrolling through my head, keeping me up at night, but don't worry, our school is still one of the best in the state. I'll be graduating in a year and a countless amount of people have told me high school is the best time of your life. If people could only recognize how much more demanding school is now than it was six, ten years ago...
Until next time,
Taylor xx
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