Confidence

Today I spent some time sifting through my old YouTube videos and reading my old blog posts. First off- I would not recommend that because it's super cringe-y to see what 2013-me was writing and talking about online. There are too many awkward selfies of me permanently online, too, so that's always a good time.

No, but in all seriousness, I've seen how much I have grown. In my first YouTube video, which I still refuse to re-watch  I remember how nervous I was (I recorded that video on my iPad mini that I had won in a church raffle but that's another story for a different day). As I look at myself now, I definitely still see parts of that nervous 15 year old, but I have so much more confidence in myself. 
These are some screenshots from videos around 1-2 years old 
LOOK AT MY HAIR!!! Also this video from like 3 years ago has 779 views that is even more stressful to think about
MY HAIR 
I feel like part of that comes from experience- I've been doing this for over 4 years. I have learned what works and what doesn't, what I like to write about and what I don't want to write about. Am I the best writer/blogger/content creator? Not by a long shot. But having this blog has given me a sense of purpose and pride. 

I think that my confidence also comes from the people who I surround myself with. I know I talk time and time again about how much I love Drury, and while it may get repetitive, I do truly love Drury as much as I say. 

Furthermore, Kappa Delta is a large part of my confidence. Kappa Delta is all about building confidence and inspiring action- we even have a Confidence Coalition. High school me and college me are two very different versions of myself. I haven't lost who I am, I have defined who I am. I have the confidence that I was lacking in high school- I've become a much more talkative, bubbly person. I'm not (as) afraid to talk to people. In high school I felt so lonely but now I am around people who make me feel good about myself and help me grow. 

My biggest advice to sophomore year of high school me is to not hold back. Believe in yourself. You will grow so much from sitting in your bedroom making YouTube videos about your favorite books to coming to college and explaining your passion for Greek Life.

Until next time,
Taylor xx

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